the me.....

salam..............

with the work loading over and over.....exhausted from the lab work of 24 hours for several days, now i can get a little rest even for awhile.......



with the start of 2010 year, i am now facing many challenges especially about relationship....the me that i now is a hard person to express her own feeling......only the anger of me can be figure out by my closest person.it is hard for me tell that i'm not in angry with anybody just to tell them that i'am in somekind of depression or i am firmly holding my words.......only my Creator's know the best how i'm feeling whenever and wherever it happened.

I know that the me know is not the same as before, but the same thing that i have been searching is still the same.....the happiness that Allah will bless and His rahmah. passing through the long time......people keep changing,but still i'm missing the past me eventhough i never want be like that person again. The soft me that make people playing me , the easily depress and hiding me that nobody understand except Him. But through the changes i've been going by leading to the right path (insyaallah...), i found so many different meaning of happiness.



The me now with the outer side look hard and tough, but still the inside me is a weak and soft without no one knowing except him.........making the wall around for people not easily knowing the deep inside of me. Although sometime its hard to through it, but thi is the path that i've taking.


i thought i will create a blog spreading da'wah,but now is still fill it with my own stuff......well this is what the place that i feel free to story about myself......maybe i will cfreate another blog to share it with everyone.....